The other day I happened to meet some of my fellow residents in the morning.Some could not recognize me in my new look without moustaches.It took a while to make them realize that I am the same person who was doing the morning walk with them regularly.Some commented "today I see your true color, how all these days you were hiding your age by coloring your hair". I was dismayed with their comments,as I myself had not told them about my disease and they were bemused by my new avatar with clean shave and grey hairs. How semblance of rationality was lurking behind their artificial masks, I thought myself.
The people who knew me closely take these things in stride as thay know the side effects of "Votrient" that too 800 mg a day. My oncologist had prepared me mentally for the side effects of this medicine.Hair loss,hair thinning and decoloring of the hair are some of the common causes while taking Pazopanib(Votrient).I found a solace in my mind that its not going to be a permanent affair.Once 'Votrient" is stopped decoloring of hair and de-pigmentation of skin will go away.
Today I respectfully greeted my elderly neighbor in the morning while going out, his behavior seemed oblivious of my existence itself. I again went back to mirror with disparagement to see myself scrupulously for any changes in my appearance.This is what I abhor most when people's pretension around you plummeting your morale in a cesspool day in day out.But fact of the matter is that I am ageing very fast.
When I was diagnosed with stage 4 of metastatic poorly differentiated carcinoma of left kidney and bone in September'13, it was mutually agreed between me and my wife that we will not disclose this information even by mistake to people around us.for collecting sympathies.We never wanted different propositions and getting bemused ourselves in the end. We knew that it was our battle and we had to fight alone.We were assured by visiting the best Oncologist in India and he knew what was the best in these circumstances.
I had pledged to myself in Sep'13 only that I will not be afflicted with my current set of troubles and will fight it out till the very end.Candidly speaking I am left with no other choices itself. I keep determining myself everyday that I will overcome this sickness no matter what, I do not want to be a loser in the end.For this reason I keep myself flanked around with people who do not feeble me down.In these trying circumstances the choice is yours the way you want to be appraised. I find a very inspiring quote of Buddha which I always remember "You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection."
I have read many times that it starts with "I" and that you are the master of your body and soul. Modern science and medicine also supports this view.Ones's emotional state is intertwined to brain and nervous system, the psychological and mental state of a patient can affect the immune system.The recovery from the disease to a large extent is related to that.This has been substantiated by many people whom I met and are now cancer free.Its of least significance that you are affected with the disease rather cardinal truth is how you are accosting the challenges.
The people who knew me closely take these things in stride as thay know the side effects of "Votrient" that too 800 mg a day. My oncologist had prepared me mentally for the side effects of this medicine.Hair loss,hair thinning and decoloring of the hair are some of the common causes while taking Pazopanib(Votrient).I found a solace in my mind that its not going to be a permanent affair.Once 'Votrient" is stopped decoloring of hair and de-pigmentation of skin will go away.
Today I respectfully greeted my elderly neighbor in the morning while going out, his behavior seemed oblivious of my existence itself. I again went back to mirror with disparagement to see myself scrupulously for any changes in my appearance.This is what I abhor most when people's pretension around you plummeting your morale in a cesspool day in day out.But fact of the matter is that I am ageing very fast.
When I was diagnosed with stage 4 of metastatic poorly differentiated carcinoma of left kidney and bone in September'13, it was mutually agreed between me and my wife that we will not disclose this information even by mistake to people around us.for collecting sympathies.We never wanted different propositions and getting bemused ourselves in the end. We knew that it was our battle and we had to fight alone.We were assured by visiting the best Oncologist in India and he knew what was the best in these circumstances.
I had pledged to myself in Sep'13 only that I will not be afflicted with my current set of troubles and will fight it out till the very end.Candidly speaking I am left with no other choices itself. I keep determining myself everyday that I will overcome this sickness no matter what, I do not want to be a loser in the end.For this reason I keep myself flanked around with people who do not feeble me down.In these trying circumstances the choice is yours the way you want to be appraised. I find a very inspiring quote of Buddha which I always remember "You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe deserve your love and affection."
I have read many times that it starts with "I" and that you are the master of your body and soul. Modern science and medicine also supports this view.Ones's emotional state is intertwined to brain and nervous system, the psychological and mental state of a patient can affect the immune system.The recovery from the disease to a large extent is related to that.This has been substantiated by many people whom I met and are now cancer free.Its of least significance that you are affected with the disease rather cardinal truth is how you are accosting the challenges.
You
can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more
deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that
person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in
the entire universe deserve your love and affection.
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You
can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more
deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that
person is not to be found anywhere. You yourself, as much as anybody in
the entire universe deserve your love and affection.
Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/b/buddha132910.html#PHqIckdYhf3fZ4zs.99
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